Dice

If Einstein said God doesn't play dice then I hope that I don't either. Wish to have a life where you can step full-hearted. I want to be a straight man, has a full commitment on each decision.

Life isn't a dice. Or shouldn't be. You must have a full authority on your own breath, and be responsible. Life isn't a dice because most of the time life doesn't give you many choices, even none at all. Life isn't a dice because it doesn't have an exact solution most of the time. It's always about choosing best of the best, leaving worst of the worst, and of course coping best of some bad solutions. And it's the fun part. Or maybe the irritating one.

"Schuster, bleib bei deinem Leisten." - German proverb -

Shoemaker, stick to your last: Just do what you can do best...

(Hopefully) The Happier Semester

"According to what i think, everything in this world is a game...The one who becomes serious loses the game...So i gotta have fun..." - Kiritani Shuji (Nobuta Wo Produce)

This semester I got a quite peaceful, I hope this would be the correct word, timetable. Just a suitable one to take a short nap (almost) everyday.

TIME\DAY	MON	TUE	WED	THU	FRI
0830-0930	PAP113 LEC/STU LE LT11;	MAS182 LAB LA9 CAUCHY LAB- Wk3,6,9,12;	HW111A TUT T20 CSKL5- Wk2-13;	PAP113 LEC/STU LE LT11;	MAS183 LEC/STU LE LT11;
0930-1030
1030-1130	PAP112 LEC/STU LE LT28;	MAS182 TUT T13 TR17- Wk2-13;		MAS182 LEC/STU LE LT27;
1130-1230
1230-1330		PAP113 TUT T1 TR18- Wk2-13;
1330-1430	PAP119 LAB LA1 PAP LAB- Wk3-13;		EE8086 LEC/STU LE LT1A;	PAP112 LEC/STU LE LT28;	HW111A LEC/STU LE1 LKC-LT;
1430-1530				MAS183 TUT T1 TR36- Wk2-13;
1530-1630					MAS183 LAB LA1 MAS LAB- Wk3,6,9,12;
1630-1730				PAP112 TUT T2 TR17- Wk2-13;

Index	Course	Title	AUs	Exam Schedule
73131	MAS183	Linear Algebra And Multivariable Calculus	3	15-APR-08 1300-1500
35604	EE8086	Astronomy - Stars, Galaxies And Cosmology	3	16-APR-08 1700-1900
73117	MAS182	Calculus For The Sciences Ii	3	17-APR-08 1300-1500
74002	PAP112	Fields And Oscillations	4	24-APR-08 1300-1530
74011	PAP113	Optics And Waves	4	02-MAY-08 1430-1700
70020	HW111A	Mastering Communication	3	-----Not Applicable------
74021	PAP119	Physics Lab Ib	2	-----Not Applicable------
Total	7 Course(s)		22 AU(s)

As I am entering the second semester, the competition between the guys in physics course has become more and more tight. Some figures have uprisen to have some strong reputation between us, become the special ones, if we are referring to Mr. Great Mourinho. Yet I am not the one of it. Hopefully not yet.

It is interesting, though, as I am a don't-wanna-lose type. And it somehow ignites a nostalgic memories, about a rivalry. But, the big question mark is placed on whether it would be a same race? I don't know. Maybe it's helpless. Or become a war, a cold one. I still have a chance to win, as long as I throw dilly-dallying away from my dictionary.

"Al waajibaat aktsaru minal awqaat."(Things you must do are more than the time you have [I hope this is quite accurate translation]) - Hasan Al-Banna

Howdy

In the 18-year life, yet precisely is 222 months, of me, I never feel more lost, failed, fragile and blind as I am now. It seems that disorientation and confusion have twisted my head upside down. It's funny, though, because I had a strong reputation, at least to me, for being resistant.

Some questions that comes forward in my head are, also, funny. Being circled again and again into the same maze makes the life these days to be so hardly peaceful. Is it that hard? Well, yes. What in the world that could become so desperately unsolvable, yet hope it isn't insolvable? Well, papi, life has become more and more complicated for me today. Alas, the me today is searching for the happy me yesterday, always been in that loop.

But an optimistic ikhwan must take a step forward rather than keep on hesitating himself. Remedy comes from active effort, not a passive weak self-oriented creature.

Then, maybe it's not a good how-do-you-do-words, but, let it be. Make this blog revives, indeed.